If you feel stressed, give yourself a break.
Eat some cake, ice cream, chocolates or other sweets. Why?
Because stressed spelled backwards as
Desserts.
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Thursday, March 31, 2011
imma find the word FREEDOM!
Heyy you!
Yes you!
Please get out of my mind.
:P
I need to do an excessive dying in learning.
So... See ya!
:))
Yes you!
Please get out of my mind.
:P
I need to do an excessive dying in learning.
So... See ya!
:))
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Thank you Gege Nathanael! ^^
No one ever gets tired of loving..
But everyone gets tired of waiting, assuming, hearing lies, saying sorry, and hurting...
If you love someone don't give up... :D
But everyone gets tired of waiting, assuming, hearing lies, saying sorry, and hurting...
If you love someone don't give up... :D
I'm done with you.
"Omg! Are you serious? :O
U broke up with him?
Well... That's good. :)
All I see from him is betrayal looks.
I think he's a playboy, seen from his face.
I'm happy you are not with that jerk anymore.
You can get better than him".
He doesn't deserve a girl like you, Yul.
One of my friend said that.
However, my heart frowning deep inside.
I don't know whether it's true.
But I just hope, I don't want to be in relationship with any guy right now.
:))
For me, single is the very best gift from God place into my life.
A level, I'm gonna get you A!!!! Get ready! Yuhuuu!
University of Melbourne, I'm coming!!! :D
U broke up with him?
Well... That's good. :)
All I see from him is betrayal looks.
I think he's a playboy, seen from his face.
I'm happy you are not with that jerk anymore.
You can get better than him".
He doesn't deserve a girl like you, Yul.
One of my friend said that.
However, my heart frowning deep inside.
I don't know whether it's true.
But I just hope, I don't want to be in relationship with any guy right now.
:))
For me, single is the very best gift from God place into my life.
A level, I'm gonna get you A!!!! Get ready! Yuhuuu!
University of Melbourne, I'm coming!!! :D
I'm thinking bout you now. *and you?*
There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.
(:
(:
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I never want to fall in love again.
every time I love one guy,
He will always ditch me at the end.
All of those memories seems nothing.
Just a plain mystery buried with cement.
My heart stoned in every relationship failure.
It's just not that.
It crashes all my pain in fatigue.
Trembling, frighten, contented hatred.
Blend them as one in my mind.
I just can't concentrate on my book anymore.
it hurts deeper and stretch the laughter away.
Yes those heartless guy did it to me.
Since then, I never want to love a guy so much.
Till I'm dying for their loves.
Bullshit.
No such thing as true love exist in this earth.
No marriage.
No love.
No more trial.
This's the one that makes me a lonely girl since then.
I've got my Lord in my heart.
I don't need nobody else.
He will always ditch me at the end.
All of those memories seems nothing.
Just a plain mystery buried with cement.
My heart stoned in every relationship failure.
It's just not that.
It crashes all my pain in fatigue.
Trembling, frighten, contented hatred.
Blend them as one in my mind.
I just can't concentrate on my book anymore.
it hurts deeper and stretch the laughter away.
Yes those heartless guy did it to me.
Since then, I never want to love a guy so much.
Till I'm dying for their loves.
Bullshit.
No such thing as true love exist in this earth.
No marriage.
No love.
No more trial.
This's the one that makes me a lonely girl since then.
I've got my Lord in my heart.
I don't need nobody else.
only hope
Too much fights we did.
I'm tired.
You keep on pressing me even deeper.
Too pathetic. Too pitiful. Too over.
You say goodbye and live a life well.
Don't you know it's like cutting butterfly's wings and telling it to fly.
Yes I feel guilty to let u go.
But I have to.
I have no choice.
If I tell u the reason, then you'll hate me more.
It's all written in the korean sentences I told him.
He doesn't even understand.
Then, I can't do anything with it.
I'm sad to see you sad.
It's like I'm the bad girl here.
But if u keep quiet for a while, the world be silent.
Maybe you can hear the cause.
You can hear what I'm screaming right now.
I can't tell you my dear NYME blog.
:(
You can spread my sealed secret of my life.
I'm sorry to hurt you kelvin, but this is for your own good.
You better go and find another girl. Better than me.
Prettier than me.
Smarter than me.
Healthier than me.
I know you deserve that girl.
Compare to me, just an useless girl.
If I disappear one day, nobody knows where I'm going.
Life is hard.
But every time I try to jump off from the tall grounded cement,
He whispers me, soft yet loud, for not leaving this world.
A world with racism.
Much of fake covering it.
Nobody wants me.
Even the guy I most like now hates me.
I don't know how to be strong.
Nobody teach me.
Even the closest friend of mine.
Where are you my friend?
I need you now.
But you never seem to show up.
Am I only your doll to be bullied at?
I don't know how to be me anymore.
No way out.
Please God, if you let me to live, then give me a full wonderful life.
Not a life with disease.
That will ended me to see you soon.
If it's true, hence take me with you faster.
Because I don't have any power to stand in this world. Amen.
I'm tired.
You keep on pressing me even deeper.
Too pathetic. Too pitiful. Too over.
You say goodbye and live a life well.
Don't you know it's like cutting butterfly's wings and telling it to fly.
Yes I feel guilty to let u go.
But I have to.
I have no choice.
If I tell u the reason, then you'll hate me more.
It's all written in the korean sentences I told him.
He doesn't even understand.
Then, I can't do anything with it.
I'm sad to see you sad.
It's like I'm the bad girl here.
But if u keep quiet for a while, the world be silent.
Maybe you can hear the cause.
You can hear what I'm screaming right now.
I can't tell you my dear NYME blog.
:(
You can spread my sealed secret of my life.
I'm sorry to hurt you kelvin, but this is for your own good.
You better go and find another girl. Better than me.
Prettier than me.
Smarter than me.
Healthier than me.
I know you deserve that girl.
Compare to me, just an useless girl.
If I disappear one day, nobody knows where I'm going.
Life is hard.
But every time I try to jump off from the tall grounded cement,
He whispers me, soft yet loud, for not leaving this world.
A world with racism.
Much of fake covering it.
Nobody wants me.
Even the guy I most like now hates me.
I don't know how to be strong.
Nobody teach me.
Even the closest friend of mine.
Where are you my friend?
I need you now.
But you never seem to show up.
Am I only your doll to be bullied at?
I don't know how to be me anymore.
No way out.
Please God, if you let me to live, then give me a full wonderful life.
Not a life with disease.
That will ended me to see you soon.
If it's true, hence take me with you faster.
Because I don't have any power to stand in this world. Amen.
Monday, March 28, 2011
It's 100 Posts already! HOORAY~
Hmm… I don’t know why I made this blog.
Because of my ex, I can write anything I want to write.
So, this will be the new beginning of my blog again.
(:
You will be able to interpret lots of things in my life, my schedule, my mood, etc.
Thank you for being a good reader! May God bless you anywhere you go. Amen.
Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.
If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't like you. If I hadn't liked you, I wouldn't love you. If I wouldn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do and I will.
I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more.
I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more.
I make the most of what comes and the least of what goes.
I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, and I’m not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it, because I'm in love with you.
Those who do not know how to weep with their whole heart do not know how to laugh either.
Always do what is right. This will surprise some people and astonish the rest.
Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn't think you wanted.
Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you.
If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears.
I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, and I’m not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it, because I'm in love with you.
Those who do not know how to weep with their whole heart do not know how to laugh either.
Always do what is right. This will surprise some people and astonish the rest.
Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn't think you wanted.
Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you.
If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears.
Back To Basic *o*
© A break up is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself to fix it.
© No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you’ll never get through it without your friends.
© Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.
© It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.
© Take away love and our earth is a tomb.
© Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
© The heart was made to be broken.
© Just give me time and I’ll get over you.
© Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don’t deserve me. They’re right, you don’t deserve me, but I deserve you.
© When you break up, your whole identity is shattered. You are no longer alive.
© I don’t miss him; I miss who I thought he was.
© It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.
© I just broke up with someone and the last thing she said to me was “You’ll never find anyone like me again!” I’m thinking, “I should hope not! If I don’t want you, why would I want someone like you
© Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn’t think you wanted.
© Moving on is simple, it’s what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.
© Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
© The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live.
© If someone you love hurts you cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it.
© Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.
© The hardest part of dreaming about someone you love has to wake up.
© I was born the day I met you, lived a while when you loved me, died a little when we broke apart.
© The worst way to love someone is to sit next to them, knowing they don’t love you back.
© I don’t want to keep being the girl that keeps crying about the same things.
© You don’t realize how much you care about someone until they don’t care about you.
© I wish you weren’t in my dreams.
It's Over
He comes to my class for what I commented him and... We talk a little.
He smiled.
I smiled.
But it makes my heart pounding even harder when I finished my sentence with sad voice.
I feel broken heart to let you go.
I feel sad.
It's hard to say that I want to over it.
But I need to fulfill the truth or dare games given from my friends.
My class plays extreme truth or dare for the whole day.
:'(
I choose to pick dare in extreme games when the pen turns toward me.
Our names come out.
Yet, it's true. He's easy to let me go.
He gives up so fast to that letter I gave to him.
He didn't even try to hold my hands when I'm going.
He didn't even try to ask why Idid that.
He didn't even want to text me again.
There is no courage for him to make it back again.
No more effort for our relationship.
:'(
This life is harder when you are not around.
But yeah. It's the end when u say bye.
The tight relationship is now so loose.
Have a happy life with her J
Bye Kelvin! Thank you for filling my life!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
I Lay My Life On You
Sometimes there's nothing
I want more than:
To talk to you
To tell you about my day,
To hear about yours,
To laugh with you,
To tease you,
To share an inside joke,
That no one else would get,
To argue with you,
But know we're just kidding.
I want more than:
To talk to you
To tell you about my day,
To hear about yours,
To laugh with you,
To tease you,
To share an inside joke,
That no one else would get,
To argue with you,
But know we're just kidding.
Nothing Special Right?
It's a person out from a boom box
Abandoned in the tiny place.
Never before be this petite.
Decrease in size, lesser in spaces.
Almost gone and vanish.
How can I tell?
Please recorded back the time.
I miss those memories we left behind.
Full of laughter, kisses, surprises, photos, tears, cheers along with experiences.
Your care can never let anyone to replace it.
Your touch can never be able to remove.
Your bliss lingers and can never ever be polished with others.
However those bad, influence flowing in my soul stream.
Stretch every scars of wounded u made.
Too much swollen till it bursts to hatred.
Time to time, it still there.
Just let the time ticking.
As I flash back 2 years ago.
You do drifting, you do billiard, you do hang out and you do school for cool.
I remembered you took me away with you after I go home from school secretly.
You come as anonymous as wind flew howling.
I know nothing.
Just an ordinary innocent girl that knows nothing about love.
U teach me and I get addicted to learn it more from u.
In a deep rough way yet u make it as a complicated seduction.
But I never feel guilty about knowing you.
It is 2011 now. Maybe 2012 will be coming soon.
Yes u doesn’t left any evidence of footprints u left behind.
No more contacts since u stop stalking me.
I miss your investigation to my life.
Noticing you're still there in every daily activity.
The one that every night missing my voice.
Trying hard to call me all the night, written in private number.
I picked it up once.
But you just give me silent call. No voice of yours.
Hey I saw your car in front of my house.
It was raining. Not that tons pouring of water fell down.
But you’re blur face I saw, sketch you more and more in my heart.
Since then I never ever saw you again.
Do you miss me?
I kinda miss you naughty boy.
Guess you feel the same as what I feel.
The teddy bear you gave to me, he is fine. Don't worry.
The DY still written there, in the back of its ear.
The necklace you gave to me, I don't throw it.
I lied to you.
At that time I was drive angry at you so I throw away the necklace to the street.
I take it back though.
What a stupid out-of-control mistake I made.
When I lost you, I cried every night down in my blanket.
My eyes can't hold the pain.
The pain of losing you has lost my mind.
How can you be that cruel?
I don't mean to leave you. So don't leave me when I'm down.
But you did it. And we ended it up so heartless.
You never successes to teach me how to love a guy properly.
Suppose u still owe me! HAHA
Anyway, I talked to her already.
The one that I called as the third person between us.
She's my friend now.
You are right.
She tells me everything in details.
There is nothing between u both.
You seriously loved me so damn deep.
I just don't care how u feels that time.
How stupid
I should have to trust u that time.
Sorry to make u tired of me.
Sorry to hurt you that time.
I'm fast in getting jealous huh?
Thank you for filling my heart with those guilty feeling that hard to erased.
Honestly if I can rewind back the time, I want to tell everything that I felt before.
I hope you are good there in Singapore.
Drive slowly. Talk softly. Treat girls gently. No bad words please. Collect photos no more. Study well. Be a good boy. Take care Bee!
P.S: Please get lost out of my mind.
Abandoned in the tiny place.
Never before be this petite.
Decrease in size, lesser in spaces.
Almost gone and vanish.
How can I tell?
Please recorded back the time.
I miss those memories we left behind.
Full of laughter, kisses, surprises, photos, tears, cheers along with experiences.
Your care can never let anyone to replace it.
Your touch can never be able to remove.
Your bliss lingers and can never ever be polished with others.
However those bad, influence flowing in my soul stream.
Stretch every scars of wounded u made.
Too much swollen till it bursts to hatred.
Time to time, it still there.
Just let the time ticking.
As I flash back 2 years ago.
You do drifting, you do billiard, you do hang out and you do school for cool.
I remembered you took me away with you after I go home from school secretly.
You come as anonymous as wind flew howling.
I know nothing.
Just an ordinary innocent girl that knows nothing about love.
U teach me and I get addicted to learn it more from u.
In a deep rough way yet u make it as a complicated seduction.
But I never feel guilty about knowing you.
It is 2011 now. Maybe 2012 will be coming soon.
Yes u doesn’t left any evidence of footprints u left behind.
No more contacts since u stop stalking me.
I miss your investigation to my life.
Noticing you're still there in every daily activity.
The one that every night missing my voice.
Trying hard to call me all the night, written in private number.
I picked it up once.
But you just give me silent call. No voice of yours.
Hey I saw your car in front of my house.
It was raining. Not that tons pouring of water fell down.
But you’re blur face I saw, sketch you more and more in my heart.
Since then I never ever saw you again.
Do you miss me?
I kinda miss you naughty boy.
Guess you feel the same as what I feel.
The teddy bear you gave to me, he is fine. Don't worry.
The DY still written there, in the back of its ear.
The necklace you gave to me, I don't throw it.
I lied to you.
At that time I was drive angry at you so I throw away the necklace to the street.
I take it back though.
What a stupid out-of-control mistake I made.
When I lost you, I cried every night down in my blanket.
My eyes can't hold the pain.
The pain of losing you has lost my mind.
How can you be that cruel?
I don't mean to leave you. So don't leave me when I'm down.
But you did it. And we ended it up so heartless.
You never successes to teach me how to love a guy properly.
Suppose u still owe me! HAHA
Anyway, I talked to her already.
The one that I called as the third person between us.
She's my friend now.
You are right.
She tells me everything in details.
There is nothing between u both.
You seriously loved me so damn deep.
I just don't care how u feels that time.
How stupid
I should have to trust u that time.
Sorry to make u tired of me.
Sorry to hurt you that time.
I'm fast in getting jealous huh?
Thank you for filling my heart with those guilty feeling that hard to erased.
Honestly if I can rewind back the time, I want to tell everything that I felt before.
I hope you are good there in Singapore.
Drive slowly. Talk softly. Treat girls gently. No bad words please. Collect photos no more. Study well. Be a good boy. Take care Bee!
P.S: Please get lost out of my mind.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
I'm Running Out Of Words When He Kisses Me
I don’t know why.
If you have read this blog then tell me why.
Why you never tell me that you love me personally?
Am I supposed to tell him I love him all the time?
Do I do the right thing in this relationship?
That questions punching me up when I don’t hear any those words I expect you to speak as a lover.
But none of those monosyllables comes out from your mouth.
So I choose to pick decreasing the sign of too over to you rather than frequent attention that will never be replied.
Prayer is The Voice of Faith
Look at this guy in front of where I’m sitting right now.
Is he adorable? Is he cute? Is he chubby? Is he nerd?
YES YES YES YES YES!
Haha *LMAO*
I love Kelvin whatever the way he is. My heart has locked him and can’t never let go.
So, how can I say that I do falling for him even when he is praying?
:/
Guess what?! He forgot to pray before I comment him to pray right on time.
Ilysm Mr.Busy©
Peeping on the camera!
I put pose that I’m playing with my phone. But he doesn’t realize my camera is hell ON to capture him. HAHA
My camera is stalking over you just to get your photo. OOPS!
How naughty. : P
I can’t stand the urge of seeing you all you time, so, I take some of your photos silently. J
SORRY dear. My camera stalks badly. I do not stalk you, just investigating my sweetheart.
KKKK! I’m so into you.
So CHEERS! >:D
P.S: I hate my Blackberry’s camera. It sucks. Too bad for motion pictures
I love K to the E to the L to the V. I. N
Bon Appetite!
‘I like western’s burger more because it’s larger in size than in Indonesia. The burger looks bigger in the display LCD but when ordered, the burger isn’t as big as in the picture. How disappointed and unsatisfied’, said my dear Kelvin.
HAHAHA
Guess what’s the brand of the burger?
BURGER KING!!! J
Sounds yummy right?
Hmm,,, haahah X) how cute he is eating the burger! : P
I like him in every style he moves © He’s the only appetite in my life
Wanna See Kel going to Dreamland?
It’s when he’s feeling exhausted walking around the mall and sleeping as well.
He sits beside me and it’s when I take a photo of him silently.
But BUSTED at when he opens his eyes immediately.
L
*whew*
Sleep well my dear ©
We are a pair of star-crossed lover
26.03.11
It’s about the plan hanging out to Central Park.
It’s the first time I hang out with my boo, so it’s the most memorable thing I remember in my brain.
It’s 1 PM. ©©©
I wear pink-black stripes tank top and a black high waist pants and black shoes, completed with adorable ribbon clip in my hair.
Kelvin wears purple t-shirt written ‘world with no stranger’ and black long pants, specialized by my gift to him, a brown shoe.
The punctual time is within the schedule we made and so PUFF! Here we go~
Kelvin and I walk around the mall and chit-chatting about tons of topics. Yes he can see me smiling all the way every time I talk with him >< he just doesn’t realize that.
Sound awkward but yeah. It’s so awful that I make it silly and fun! ©
We circled around the mall for about twice or thrice just to walk around that. Tiring but it never makes me frown yet since he’s with me so time ticking slowly. I don’t even realized time has passed by that fast XD *gross*
My sister coming along with us and of course my reunion friends gather with us too, they are the one that will be touring with me in Taiwan this July. SUMMER BREAK ~ hotty trip >:D
OH YEAH! He gave me something that most of the girls in this world can feel ‘high’ when boys give this to them as the sign of romance.
A Bucket of ROSE! <3
Yeah~ together with the perfume he spray X) SO cute >< aaaargh~ every time I see the rose in my bedroom, I always wanna text him or open my album gallery just to check his photos. Aww.. You can’t wonder how I miss him. ©
“I’m collecting some of a unique t-shirt”, he said. Probably green or purple I recorded back here.
J He’s the superb masterpiece God has ever made for me to be apart with. Thank you Lord for putting Kelvin into my life, I praise your plan above all.
However, I feel so sad when I’m checking his phone right away when he’s texting with a girl named ‘Edeline’. I don’t know who she is, I don’t even wanna know about her. But I feel so jealous with her. I admit I am a jealousy person. How can he want to see stranger and pleased to have a meeting with her? I just don’t understand Kelvin even more. Of course, all girls will think the same as I am when they are seeing their beloved lover flirting other girl. X) So yeah… I admit myself Kelvin is Playboy like as what my friends told me.
But I still love him though. HAHA *crazy*
I mark people. I judge them. And I eliminate those who are giving bad influence in my life story. Sounds cruel but I guess all people do the same thing. Furthermore, I will get use to his style of living.
Our time has finished by the time strikes 4 o’clock. XD
I really had a great time with him, I enjoy it, and I love it so much!!!! I hope someday he can come to my house and having lunch with my family, along with Melvin too :D
I still feel guilty of deleting Melvin. I think it’s cruel only for a small problem we have including Kelvin. Hahaha! :P if Melvin can read my blog, if Melvin still in my contacts, if Melvin can see my message, I will say so sorry in my deep guiltiness. So yeah… I hope you enter Binus International University successfully!
J
Kelvin made Yuli’s day exquisite©
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