I'm too sleepy to write one post. Hahaha
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Saturday, January 28, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
I'm back, see ya my bb!
I'm always bb on, but there's nothing special about my phone anymore, just plain screen as you can see.
haha x) but i'm glad to be back to my mood.
Mr. ICT said: if you wanna become a better person, every people will do four things in their life cycle.
first, mood. change your mood.
second, forget. just delete the past.
third, learn. research again.
last but not least, share. you'll never know your smartness if you don't share.
so, i successfully put 'reading a novel' to my dictionary of hobby. and reading a full passage story isn't that bad. as i remember when i'm still a small kid, i used to like books that have only animations of picture.hahha
but i guess, last time i check, i'm not that small girl anymore. XOXO
haha x) but i'm glad to be back to my mood.
Mr. ICT said: if you wanna become a better person, every people will do four things in their life cycle.
first, mood. change your mood.
second, forget. just delete the past.
third, learn. research again.
last but not least, share. you'll never know your smartness if you don't share.
so, i successfully put 'reading a novel' to my dictionary of hobby. and reading a full passage story isn't that bad. as i remember when i'm still a small kid, i used to like books that have only animations of picture.hahha
but i guess, last time i check, i'm not that small girl anymore. XOXO
Friday, January 13, 2012
Is that a sin to write post?
“Murder Maker” written by Margaret Johnson, is an interesting thriller , whose main character is Carla, a single woman who isbetrayed by her ex boyfriend. Other characters are three Carla’s friends called Diana, Gemma and Cathy who have something in common with Carla; all of them were abandoned by their partners. The action is mainly set in Cuba and in the northeast of England.
The story begins when Carla’s partner, Mark, breaks their relation saying to her “I’ve met somebody else”. Four simple words that change completely the world around Carla. Later, she meets other three women who are in a similar situation and little by little the idea of revenge is coming to her mind. This is how Carla becomes a murderer. But the question is: Is worth it the revenge?
The book shows us how small the difference between love and hate is and how an ordinary person, in an extreme situation, can became a murderer.
If you want discover that, do not stop reading this surprising book, because I am sure you´ll enjoy reading it and you will be able to make conclusions by yourself.
KELVIN WONG this post is for you!
Do you miss me?
because i do.
*giggle*
laugh out loud when you've read this! >:P
because i do.
*giggle*
laugh out loud when you've read this! >:P
hahahah!
my phone please don't die!
:)) i like ur buttons, your screen, your colours and your design. please don't die as i still need you here. hahaa
amen,
amen,
BIODIVERSITY
biodiversity is the range of communities and species that are present in an area (like grassland, rainforests, wetland, deserts) and the genetic variation which exists within species. or you can say biodiversity is the total number of different species living in a area, or ecosystem or biome. to make more understandable, it's the measurement of health in ecosystem.
about endangered species,, you can consider that in elephant, etc.
biology
about endangered species,, you can consider that in elephant, etc.
biology
Heels above my head
can somebody teach me about Matematika UN? there are things that i don't know.
and... nobody answer. x)
blubbering
Mars and Venus? Nope. The only problem between the genders is that we each have the others needs and wants backwards. Men want to be needed, and women need to be wanted. Not the other way around. It's that simple! The greatest experience we can ever have is usually not a welcomed one at that time.
There is a time to speak up, and a time to be silent. A time to read and a time to write. A time to learn and a time to teach. A time to listen and a time to be heard. A time to lose and a time to gain. And for all of these things the time is now.
Memories are what you have, when you've lost everything else. Dreams are what you have, when you forget the memories. And bliss is what you have when you give up both.
ACHOO!
There is a time to speak up, and a time to be silent. A time to read and a time to write. A time to learn and a time to teach. A time to listen and a time to be heard. A time to lose and a time to gain. And for all of these things the time is now.
Memories are what you have, when you've lost everything else. Dreams are what you have, when you forget the memories. And bliss is what you have when you give up both.
ACHOO!
To you my COWARD ex! D
written on July 17, 2010 for him.
I am writing to say goodbye. Goodbye for now, not for forever. I am fairly sure our paths will continue to meet. Maybe someday I’ll be more mature and better prepared for whatever comes my way, but I cannot anymore handle the pain you have unknowingly caused me these past months
Don’t get me wrong. You have made me very happy just by sharing yourself and your life with me. The memories will stay in my heart forever. From the time we first started going out until now, you have unfailingly shown me how it is to be really cared for and cherished. At the same time you have managed to keep my feet on the ground, always reminding me that my life is my own and no one else’s. I thank you for that. You taught me how fully comprehend what real love is like without even telling me you loved me. Just by showing me in your own way, you made me see how two incompatible persons can actually become real friends and true lovers.
You have kept my feet on the ground and yet showed me how beautiful the stars and skies are.
We have dreamed together. Laughed together. Whenever I needed your comport and strength, your level-headedness and rationality, you were always there for me. Our relationship has gone through a lot of things ranging from the serious (“I hate to admit it to you outright but for me you are my boyfriend.”) to the stupid and we were able to weather the storms together, you and I mainly because we knew how to properly steer the relationship back to its proper course
I guess the only thing that went wrong is my falling in love with you and the accompanying issues of where this relationship is really headed and the roles we will actually play in each other’s lives. I know you will never fully commit yourself to any one women-knowing you, I’m sure of that
No one is to blame. Not you, nor me, nor whoever else is sharing you with me…maybe I’m just a victim of circumstance like you. And since the circumstances surrounding our relationship have changed, I don’t anymore know if I can handle things the same way I’ve handled them before. Your presence and your help will not matter. Seeing you and being with you when we spend time together gives me a certain kind of happiness only you can give. But every time you leave me, my heart breaks, knowing for certain that you have to attend to the needs of the others who need you too like me
I am hurting and I have to heal my wounds alone. I cannot do this with you in my life, because every time you leave me, the pain recurs
I will miss you. I will miss you very, very, very much. But contrary to what I used to believe, I’m not as tough as I thought I would be. I try so hard to be strong, to think that your other relationships do not matter, but they do matter…a lot. So I have to let you go now
I do not want to do this-but I must. Call it false bravado on my part. I know I’ll be hurting myself more by saying goodbye to you now, but I am unable to continue as if things haven’t changed
You told me time and again to expect the worse, or assume the worst, so that when the time comes I’ll be ready. But the expectations and assumptions do not compare to reality. No matter how I tried to accept things as they were, no matter how much I tried to prepare myself, finding out about the actual existence of your other woman has hurt me so much. Maybe I was in denial, or maybe I was just trying so hard to believe that I was brave and strong, that whatever happened, I would be able to fully handle the truth when it dawned on me. Unfortunately that wasn’t what happened for real
I love you so much it hurts to say goodbye. But I am ashamed to admit that no matter how much I love you, no matter how deep my feelings already are for you, I cannot stay in the relationship anymore and fight for you, for us. What is there to fight for? My love for you, which you do not want to acknowledge? A future with you which looks very uncertain at this time? It is difficult to stay and fight when you d not know what it is you’re fighting for
Maybe I did unconsciously change the rules in the middle of the relationship. I know and I acknowledge that I am fully to blame for everything. I was forewarned, I knew what I was getting myself into. But as the years and months passed, maybe the attachment grew stronger. My appreciation of your companionship bred feelings and thoughts that couldn’t control and are now the cause of this pain. I thought you could shelter me forever----that you would be careful that I wouldn’t get hurt. But carelessness on your end, and too much snooping at my end to be lethal.
Remember making joke about mending broken fences???it was not a joke for me. I saw it as an admission from you, one which you didn’t want to make but still did knowing that somehow you had make things right. I appreciate your efforts at maintaining the status quo. I know it’s very difficult, considering everything that’s been said and done, which is why I appreciate you all the more. Your constant remark about things not having changed between us? In fairness to you, I admit that’s true. Things haven’t changed in our relationship at all. The caring, our mutual respect for each other, helping each other out and being there for each other….nothing has changed. And I know that if I decide to stay in relationship, nothing will change and things will go on as they have before
But I have changed. I am hurting and I wasn’t hurting before. I am becoming more critical of you and the things that you do and do not do. I expect you to make up for everything that has happened because I still believe that given the fact that we have been in our relationship longer, I will come first. I will be given more attention. I will be the “primus inter pares’---the first among equals. I even harbor the hope that you will try to court me and win me back fully, something which I know will never happen
You will forever be a part of my life, thank you for making me a part of yours. I will always remember you and the past months with a smile and with wistfulness for being the one responsible for throwing it all away… but I have to go now. I am afraid that if I stay, something will be destroyed---either be part of you, a part of me, our friendship or the relationship itself. I don’t really know. At least by leaving now, I am sure that everything remains intact, the relationship beautiful untouched unmarred by jealousy and hatred we both don’t deserve a relationship that would always be fraught with questions and conditions. I am unable to see myself as a true-blue kept woman anyway
You always said that all your past relationship never really ended. They were merely put on hold, or actually, your words were “Continuing, Open kasi”. I know this is not the end of everything. It is actually a new beginning, hopefully of a better, more beautiful friendship. But I have to do this, to say goodbye to you properly. I need closure to move on. And I realize I have to move on.
I cannot hold on to something I don’t believe in anymore. I would have been really nice to grow old with you…to laugh with you while reminiscing about the years that have passed…to share with you my whole life, and I would share with you yours…but I guess now is not right time for us, or maybe we’re just not meant to be really together, now or forever, I don’t really know. You deserve someone who will fully understand your needs and your personality, I guess I deserve someone who will love me like you have done, only that he’ll be going out with me and me alone…it’s painful to say goodbye but even more painful to stay. Please understand that I have to do this somehow.
Love you very, very much. I don’t want to leave just yet, but if I don’t do it now, I know I will never be strong enough to ever do it at all. Thank you very much for always being there for me when I needed you most. Thank you for sharing yourself with me, if only for a few years of your life.
In fact, my life will never be the same without you.
I am writing to say goodbye. Goodbye for now, not for forever. I am fairly sure our paths will continue to meet. Maybe someday I’ll be more mature and better prepared for whatever comes my way, but I cannot anymore handle the pain you have unknowingly caused me these past months
Don’t get me wrong. You have made me very happy just by sharing yourself and your life with me. The memories will stay in my heart forever. From the time we first started going out until now, you have unfailingly shown me how it is to be really cared for and cherished. At the same time you have managed to keep my feet on the ground, always reminding me that my life is my own and no one else’s. I thank you for that. You taught me how fully comprehend what real love is like without even telling me you loved me. Just by showing me in your own way, you made me see how two incompatible persons can actually become real friends and true lovers.
You have kept my feet on the ground and yet showed me how beautiful the stars and skies are.
We have dreamed together. Laughed together. Whenever I needed your comport and strength, your level-headedness and rationality, you were always there for me. Our relationship has gone through a lot of things ranging from the serious (“I hate to admit it to you outright but for me you are my boyfriend.”) to the stupid and we were able to weather the storms together, you and I mainly because we knew how to properly steer the relationship back to its proper course
I guess the only thing that went wrong is my falling in love with you and the accompanying issues of where this relationship is really headed and the roles we will actually play in each other’s lives. I know you will never fully commit yourself to any one women-knowing you, I’m sure of that
No one is to blame. Not you, nor me, nor whoever else is sharing you with me…maybe I’m just a victim of circumstance like you. And since the circumstances surrounding our relationship have changed, I don’t anymore know if I can handle things the same way I’ve handled them before. Your presence and your help will not matter. Seeing you and being with you when we spend time together gives me a certain kind of happiness only you can give. But every time you leave me, my heart breaks, knowing for certain that you have to attend to the needs of the others who need you too like me
I am hurting and I have to heal my wounds alone. I cannot do this with you in my life, because every time you leave me, the pain recurs
I will miss you. I will miss you very, very, very much. But contrary to what I used to believe, I’m not as tough as I thought I would be. I try so hard to be strong, to think that your other relationships do not matter, but they do matter…a lot. So I have to let you go now
I do not want to do this-but I must. Call it false bravado on my part. I know I’ll be hurting myself more by saying goodbye to you now, but I am unable to continue as if things haven’t changed
You told me time and again to expect the worse, or assume the worst, so that when the time comes I’ll be ready. But the expectations and assumptions do not compare to reality. No matter how I tried to accept things as they were, no matter how much I tried to prepare myself, finding out about the actual existence of your other woman has hurt me so much. Maybe I was in denial, or maybe I was just trying so hard to believe that I was brave and strong, that whatever happened, I would be able to fully handle the truth when it dawned on me. Unfortunately that wasn’t what happened for real
I love you so much it hurts to say goodbye. But I am ashamed to admit that no matter how much I love you, no matter how deep my feelings already are for you, I cannot stay in the relationship anymore and fight for you, for us. What is there to fight for? My love for you, which you do not want to acknowledge? A future with you which looks very uncertain at this time? It is difficult to stay and fight when you d not know what it is you’re fighting for
Maybe I did unconsciously change the rules in the middle of the relationship. I know and I acknowledge that I am fully to blame for everything. I was forewarned, I knew what I was getting myself into. But as the years and months passed, maybe the attachment grew stronger. My appreciation of your companionship bred feelings and thoughts that couldn’t control and are now the cause of this pain. I thought you could shelter me forever----that you would be careful that I wouldn’t get hurt. But carelessness on your end, and too much snooping at my end to be lethal.
Remember making joke about mending broken fences???it was not a joke for me. I saw it as an admission from you, one which you didn’t want to make but still did knowing that somehow you had make things right. I appreciate your efforts at maintaining the status quo. I know it’s very difficult, considering everything that’s been said and done, which is why I appreciate you all the more. Your constant remark about things not having changed between us? In fairness to you, I admit that’s true. Things haven’t changed in our relationship at all. The caring, our mutual respect for each other, helping each other out and being there for each other….nothing has changed. And I know that if I decide to stay in relationship, nothing will change and things will go on as they have before
But I have changed. I am hurting and I wasn’t hurting before. I am becoming more critical of you and the things that you do and do not do. I expect you to make up for everything that has happened because I still believe that given the fact that we have been in our relationship longer, I will come first. I will be given more attention. I will be the “primus inter pares’---the first among equals. I even harbor the hope that you will try to court me and win me back fully, something which I know will never happen
You will forever be a part of my life, thank you for making me a part of yours. I will always remember you and the past months with a smile and with wistfulness for being the one responsible for throwing it all away… but I have to go now. I am afraid that if I stay, something will be destroyed---either be part of you, a part of me, our friendship or the relationship itself. I don’t really know. At least by leaving now, I am sure that everything remains intact, the relationship beautiful untouched unmarred by jealousy and hatred we both don’t deserve a relationship that would always be fraught with questions and conditions. I am unable to see myself as a true-blue kept woman anyway
You always said that all your past relationship never really ended. They were merely put on hold, or actually, your words were “Continuing, Open kasi”. I know this is not the end of everything. It is actually a new beginning, hopefully of a better, more beautiful friendship. But I have to do this, to say goodbye to you properly. I need closure to move on. And I realize I have to move on.
I cannot hold on to something I don’t believe in anymore. I would have been really nice to grow old with you…to laugh with you while reminiscing about the years that have passed…to share with you my whole life, and I would share with you yours…but I guess now is not right time for us, or maybe we’re just not meant to be really together, now or forever, I don’t really know. You deserve someone who will fully understand your needs and your personality, I guess I deserve someone who will love me like you have done, only that he’ll be going out with me and me alone…it’s painful to say goodbye but even more painful to stay. Please understand that I have to do this somehow.
Love you very, very much. I don’t want to leave just yet, but if I don’t do it now, I know I will never be strong enough to ever do it at all. Thank you very much for always being there for me when I needed you most. Thank you for sharing yourself with me, if only for a few years of your life.
In fact, my life will never be the same without you.
i sing it, i sing it again!
CHRISTINA PERRI - A THOUSAND YEARS
BREAKING DAWN SOUNDTRACK
(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
(Verse 2)
Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/christina-perri-lyrics/a-thousand-years-lyrics.html ]
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
BREAKING DAWN SOUNDTRACK
(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
(Verse 2)
Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/christina-perri-lyrics/a-thousand-years-lyrics.html ]
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
what you mean on purpose?
I don't know who are you. what do you want?
you want the thread to be knotted back?
yes, things end but memories last forever. <3
the last novel i read : murder maker written by margaret johnson.
it's sooo thriller. she knows what i feel. x)
i love her story and i admit she's as good as the worth for being a writer in cambridge univerisity press in the Advanced level.
you want the thread to be knotted back?
yes, things end but memories last forever. <3
the last novel i read : murder maker written by margaret johnson.
it's sooo thriller. she knows what i feel. x)
i love her story and i admit she's as good as the worth for being a writer in cambridge univerisity press in the Advanced level.
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